Can Once be called Enough?

I freaking can call it my first... till the extend it can wake me up... "screaming".

but its the second time i was disturbed while i was asleep. Both were different reasons though.

This time was fear.

A website actually stated it might be caused by "unusual stress or trauma in the waking world". Well there might be one issue that is in my mind that is really kinda disturbing in a small way. But i often brush it aside when its not sought for.

but how... how was it possible for me to fear something that simple?

i had to face whatever that was causing the fear in me.. by a screaming charge (LOL). and that's how i was woke up... "screaming".

Is there a message behind this not so pleasant experience? i would say yes... but not everyone is smart to realise something this complicated. Most would brush it aside as a bad experience.

To hell with it. A new Semester begins. Lets hope my laptop doesnt fall me till... the New Mac Book Pro arrives. :X

till next time, bye everyone and tc! :D

Filling up again

Well its been a while since i updated my blog yes? Figured i should now... since i kinda have the time.

First thing on my mind is... Jingsong is a bitch and he last min cancelled our timbre outing together with Poopy and Xin Yi! well at the same time Xin Yi couldnt make it too.. but it would have been a guys day out! Sitting together, talking crap, drinking beer and doing crazy stuff.

that kinda happend 40mins before the timing we are supposed to meet up. LOL.

Went to the zoo today. Interesting and cute little animals here and there. Best were the fighting baboons and the squirrels. lol!

took pics here and there. i would say those are more of memorable shots then artistic ones.

oh yes, i finised my relief on the last day of sept. was a really good experience being a PE teacher and keeping up to what the teacher asked me to do. from it i actually realised the school has a very high standard and does not take each subject lightly. Not to mention the students as well! even though they know how to have fun, they know how to excel to the extreme as well.

better than what i saw really!

anways, i think i will upload the class pics here another time. uploading a lot of stuff to my friends on msn. its going to be hectic!

anyways! thats all for now. bye everyone and tc! :D

Filling up

i would loveeee to post what i did in River valley high.. but imma lazy to type it all out again! so if you wanna know can just ask me or smth. LOL.

anyways here is a quiz my friend Zhao min wanted me to do LOL.

Rules of the game : Once you are tagged, You MUST DO this quiz and tag 16 friends. Copy and paste everything. Do it and repost the title with whatever rank you were given. Ranks are given at the bottom of this noteIf you have done something in this school which is indicated by the sentence, mark the [ ] on the left side of the thing you have done with a x. Let the game begin!


Level 1:
[x]Sleep in class
[x]Talked in class
[x]Not seating at your own place in class
[x]Scolded by a teacher
[ ]Litter the classroom
[ ]Did not do your homework at least 15 times
[ ]Submitted your homework late at least 10 times
[ ]Came late for school at least 10 times
[ ]brought/wore home clothes without school's permission
[ ]brought/wore jewellery to school
[ ]did not pay attention in class for at least 60% of the time
[x]cried out "sian" or "wa lao wei" to the teacher
[ ]plucked a flower/ killed a plant in school
[x]copied other people's homework in desperation
[ ]played a trick on your classmates/teacher

Total so far : 6

Level 2 :
[ ]sent for detention class
[x]ate in class
[ ]not wearing your school uniform (if you have) properly
[ ]shouted at the top of your voice during lesson time
[ ]scolding vulgarities in class
[ ]spotted hairstyle deemed unacceptable by the school
[ ]used a school facility without school's permission
[ ]played soccer/basketball or any other sports in classroom
[ ]singing loudly during lesson
[ ]walking around the class aimlessly during lesson time
[ ]did not greet the teacher properly
[ ]went to the toilet during lesson time without permission
[ ]played a trick on the teacher during april fools
[ ]used the teacher's table as a rubbish dump
[ ]made yourself a nuisance to the teacher

Total so far: 7

Level 3 :
[x]was asked to stay back after school/ break time
[ ]made a fool out of morning assembly
[ ]wasted the school's toilet paper
[ ]sabotaged someone
[ ]irritated someone

Total so far: 8

Level 4 :
[ ]forged your parent's signature
[ ]forged a classmate's signature
[ ]forged a teacher's signature
[ ]made rude remarks to the school cleaners in front of them
[ ]flew a paper aeroplane down from the school from at least the fifth storey

Total so far: 8

Level 5 :
[x]fiddling with your handphone during lesson time
[ ]played with your PSP in school
[x]using school computer to play games without a teacher's permission
[ ]listened to an MP3 player in school
[ ]messed with the teacher's pigeon hole

Total so far: 10

Level 6 :
[ ]vandalising with school property
[ ]tried to defame your school in public
[ ]used the internet to scold teachers
[ ]fought with someone in school
[ ]shoplifted in school

Total so far: 10

Level 7 :
[ ]cheated in a class test
[ ]cheated in a school examination
[ ]cheated for your PSLE/ GCE 'O' or 'A' Level Examination
[ ]Lied to your teacher
[ ]played truancy for hall assemblies/ specific lessons

Total so far: 10

Level 8 :
[ ]took drugs in school
[ ]smoked in school
[ ]set fire to something in the school
[ ]locked the teacher out of the classroom
[ ]played truancy just after coming to school just to take attendance

Total so far: 10

Level 9 :
[ ]refused to pay school fees
[ ]cheated the school money
[ ]stole things which belonged to the school
[ ]bullied someone in school
[ ]pranked called your school

Total so far: 10

Level 10 :
[ ]raised your voice/shouted against a student leader
[ ]raised your voice/shouted against a teacher
[ ]raised your voice/shouted against your discipline master/mistress
[ ]raised your voice/shouted against your vice-principal
[ ]raised your voice/shouted against your principal

Total so far: 10

Level 11 :
[ ]brought weapons to the school
[ ]brought real firearms to the school
[ ]brought a real bomb to the school
[ ]fired a real weapon in the school with the motive to frighten/kil
[ ]dressed up as a terrorist to school

Grand total: 10

If you are between 0-15-------------{I am a good student}
If you are between 16-20------------{I am a good student but with occasional trouble}
If you are between 21-30------------{I am an average student}
If you are between 31-40------------{I am a bad student}
If you are between 41-50------------{I am a very bad student}
If you are between 51-60------------{I should have been caned by the discipline master}
If you are between 61-65------------{I should have been expelled from school}
If you are between 66-75------------{I should have been sent to a reformatory centre}


and then i thought... whats the point of this quiz again? i have been a good student everytime :X HAHAHHHA!

okayy thats all! bye everyone! and tc! :D

First day...

well! there goes my first day in RVHS!

was ooookayyyyyy i guess. Had like Sec ones for the whole of today. they had to practice their gym performances cuz they would be flimed... and graded.

and hell. their lessons are so interesting! they can do handstands, splits and quite a number of stuffs! not bad really.

this one group from class 1D, they were practicing during their recess... and my lesson ended. so i had to stick around to ensure the satefy and everything. This girl in the grp asked me if their grp is lousy.

i just told them, its pretty good actually! i never got to learn this stuff in my secondary school. LOL!

so that was 4 classes of gym. Tmr is 2 Sec 3 classes... fitness period.

According to the teacher (this is interesting) they have to do 4 rounds around the stadium track, 20 pushups, 20 leg raises and 20 dips. the last 3 exercises have to be done 3 times in order. LOL.

looks like they have standard man! LOL.

Next week its not going to be easy Sec 3s have floorball competition within their class. And the teacher gave notes on how to judge a floor ball match! D:

not bad really.

apart from the interesting lessons, the students are obedient, they may be noisy among themselves, but they know that they have to listen to the instructions. first day was okay, but looks like i have to adapt to how the school operates!

pretty much thats it! look up in my twitter to see my twits when i have my lessons! the link is on the right, below my profile pic! :P

alrighty! thats all everyone! tc and byeeeee! :D

Bees must be joking.

hell. all i see in my schedule are boxes after boxes.

Up arrow denotes busy before afternoon. down arrow denotes busy in afternoon onwards. Box means... busy in both morning and afternoon. LOL.


so yea.. thats that.

im starting my relieft tmr... hope everything goes well! :D

thats all for my keeping alive post! bye everyone and tc!

oh oh! and do check out jessie's blog! HER BLOGSKIN SUUUUUUUPERRRRRRR CUTEEEEEEEEE! XD XD

Finally...

Comex is here. And with a crazy IT fair going around, it never fails me to go check things out! I have my eye on the olympus pen EP-1. going to comex to try it out tmr! :D

i was at marina sq and suntec with my frens today... popped by at cathay photo to check out the out-of-stock EP-1's pricing.

EP-1 with 17mm F2.8 (34mm equiv) prime = $1450
EP-1 with 14-42mm F3.5 - 5.6 (28-84mm equiv) = $1200

ouchhh ):

so much for being a "cheap" compact idea x.x

looks like i would stick with my 40D till the EP-1's prices drop eh? would be fast anyways. i will give it.... 5 months! :D if its earlier, oh hell that means its time to get it! if not... oh bugger.

My project is going well i suppose? looks like i have to meet up with my client to settle some things. i need the product listings and pictures fast! that thing is stalling like 90% of the whole thing! LOL. okay maybe not 90%... but the heart of it. LOL.

and yes! im going to jaben too! tomorrow that is.

and wait, talking about technology, quite a number of SPP freshies are asking me what cammie to buy! Awww! so yea i was advising here and there. gosh its so hard when they dont have the heart to spent near 1.4k! but seriously its so save hundreds in the long run.. like 300+ per item you buy? thats for nikon though. lol!

OH YES! BEFORE I FORGET !

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYY FERVYN aka BITCHHHHHHHH! Like 18 finally! you can have your countless hangovers now... but oh! you have turned "good" it seems LOL. and yes! nice name you've changed to! :D please teach me how to pronounce it... really x.x

When i meet you i will pass you yr present! dont worry! its a simple one... you know.. its just a bitch slap! :D :D :D :D

LOL JUST KIDDING! :P

So next topic!

i just realised something... or rather i monitored something that made me come to this theory. he's being blinded! LIKE FINALLY! things are going to be bitchy... well im a bitch after all. XD

MJ's Song "Dangerous" would be sooo appropriate for him! Guess he never really felt how would it be like uh? heh heh heh!

could see the transformation so well! i mean! ZOMFGWTF REALLY! haha! i would love to let out a evil laugh really. but i think a (funny emote) would do appropriate! XD

oh hell. the (funny emote) is a thing between Jessie. Janice, Jing Song and me. LOL. ooopsy. XD

So i think i should end my post right here. have to meet my friend Brian at 12nn at lakeside! man has been ages since i walked to lakeside. o.o

alright then! byeee everyone and take care! :D

She said I tasted like strawberry Mogu-Mogu! D:

Thanks for the day. My thought was fulfilled. Nevertheless, i know you enjoyed it. Bused from bugis to your district despite it being at the other side of the island.

Thanks again. :D

Another Perfect Song

Yes its super long. but its description is just so perfect for me. So.. enjoy!

"Trashed and Scattered - Avenged Sevenfold"

Keep on writing you're just raping yourself
(nothing can take my mind away from them)
Don't you ask about me, ask 'bout somebody else
(Once I've fallen there's many stories to tell)
I can feel it, won't embrace it, it's overwhelming how far you take it
(Stuck in a state of questioning)
And don't you tell me you know we're destined, you won't convince me, I won't listen
(Resentment building, you've put our lives on hold)

Trashed and scattered again, I'm feelin' so low
You waste your breath while fuckin' with me, my blood is so cold
My destination always unknown, I'll find my way there
But you Goddamn Motherfuckers always wasting my time

I won't be the victim, but the first to cast a stone
Sedated nights to the bar room fights as metropolis takes its toll
And don't you try to stop me, it's a place you'll never know
Don't try to judge or take shots at me, I'll never let you seize control

Play your game and walk away, your integrity don't mean shit
Crawl on me you fucking parasite, and I'm gonna take you out

Label me, that's fine, I'll be somebody else
(Nothing in front of me but holes ahead)
Lie about my life, have a story to tell
(Lights went down, was on the edge and I fell)
Oh you're so insightful, let me remind you to twist and break me, should make you worried
(Long way to go and you're right there)
Two-faced liar, don't try and know me, deceit brings fire, makes sure you can't breathe
(Pick at pieces of my body below)

I never bothered with all the rumors, too much garbage
(All the same)
I'll stand right here, come on you falsehood deceitful liar
(I know my destination - there's no shame)
Don't ever take my side, I know you're never right, I'll justify the means
(Nothing's what it seems)
I'll stand around and fight, but there's no point tonight, been chained to this machine

Trashed and scattered again, I'm feelin' so low
You waste your breath while fuckin' with me, my blood is so cold
My destination's always unknown, I'll find my way there
but Goddamn Imposter are you out of your mind?

I walk down these roads alone and now you're seen here
My feelings that I'm having towards you are perfectly clear (I control this ride)
My devils appetite is tonight and now I'm alright
But you Goddamn Motherfuckers always wasting my time

Play your game and walk away, your integrity don't mean shit
Crawl on me you fucking parasite, and I'm gonna take you out

I won't be the victim, but the first to cast a stone
Sedated nights to the bar room fights as metropolis takes its toll
And don't you try to stop me, it's a place you'll never know
Don't try to judge or take shots at me, I'll never let you seize control

Don't try and get the best of me
(No one can help but your own self)
City makes my body ache
(Lonely, don't try and prey on me)
I feel your world keep dying, (Don't try and get the best of me)
(No one can help but your own self)
No more use in tryin' (City makes my body ache)
(Lonely, don't try and prey on me)

And my body's trashed and low, but to you I'll never show myself or what's inside
And I've seen it all before but I'll settle the score, I'll never join your side

Psychology meets Spirituality

Once again, It has never failed me to read inner intentions and actually come up with various possiblities of a situation/person.

*Disclaimer: these readings are not on-the-spot read and print out results, but they are of watching/listening over a period of - at least a complete of - 24hours... to come up the change he's wanting and how he's working for it. (And thats when a change in behaviour has been detected). So those trying-to-fool-around people dont come up to me saying "Read me".

However, a litter bugger though. If a person's thought is so focused and definite and has thought until the person knows he/she would not change his/her decision, will the odds actually follow that deep thinking?

Not to mention an high coincidence of the odds changing at that perfect timing, seeing his/her intentions was way more clearer.

How does this new-friend-found Spiritual power play in the world of intention amplification?

Funny enough, the power or repeated wishes never failed from coming true in some sort of way. Yes it doesnt work all the time. But if it does, you would be happy till beyond oblivion. No wrong in that. This seems to support my little bugger. Interesting.

Likewise, looks like this one person has been wishing for something he/she wants. Can see that he/she is working well to change the odds in such a way that he/she gets what he/she desires.

Right now, we're merely being finger puppets. Ever thought of realising the truth?

Till now, there aint no one that can go against his/her heart... cause it probably give him/her a heartache (no, its not meant to be funny).

Well then thats good. Lets see how I can manipulate the Mind to affect the Heart... give a victim a mindblock caused by his/her heart.

We are all Humans. Its Just the level of humanity we have inside that makes us all different.

A Clip That Meant Something

This is a Video that kinda.. means smth. Listen!

Guts vs Bravery

Sometimes i hate myself that i dont have the courage to face up to someone... but sometimes im glad that i didnt have it. How right can all this get?

Till now, im still glad that i dont have it, but i would think how great it would be if i had.

Nevertheless, im moving.

And as Promised, i would post what i did to my ipod. Well here it is. :D


yeaps! try to guess where the cabling goes! :P

I still dont know. But i know that you're still the greatest person I've ever met. Even though im surrounded by others, whom you may know/not know, either by first hand or by second... thats it. Thats all i can say. I guess i have to leave things as it is for now, and let nature takes its course. Part of me says "press on" and the other says "leave it and move on". Perhaps I'm over-reacting.
Nevertheless, i will put my thought into action. But it would be hidden. Find it you may not.

Love? What?

Good Bye Exams. Hello Programming!

What else is there more to be said? I'm killing myself with a new drug called programming. Its fun, its addictive, but kills overdrives your brains.. but gets you going.

Achievements and Entertainment never failed me to realised optional things becoming a necessity in life. Most of the population of the world would think its the way that makes them feel belonged.

If you say that's why its called it, rubbish. The meaning of it is no longer what it means anymore. The sad thing is that... teens are kinda of the cause of this meaning-gone-wrong. Its not something that can be changed... unless they grow up. LOL!

so yea... thats my post for today. and while at it, imma adding a pic down here to let you see something. and then i will post what i did to it in the next post! :D






yeap, you've guessed it right. hehe! well then guess what i did to it.
but you will only know in the next post!

till then, good bye everyone and takecare! :D

you're the one that put the smiles on my face... i dont know if you realise it or think its a normal thing.. but it means something to me. hence, the thought of it should be not be wrong. its meant for you.

Prediction and Psychology

When one is able to be pattern-ed or/and predicted, does it mean its not ment to be?

Yes.
It seems so.

"Suppression"

18 years and 3 months has passed. I've changed into a machine, not a man. Im full of happiness, and not sorrows. I smile despite all the changes, despite all the negativity, despite all the event, despite all that happens around me. What have I become?

I pretend everything that happens, i would just take it in. Well yes i can. But there are levels in which i can tolerate all the nonsense.

Though at times i reach my breaking point, i still try my very best to Suppress this sudden urge of causing destruction.

But no, I have to hold it back, just to prevent awkwardness and atmosphere change. I don't know to how many people am i going to show my loud crazy side, whereas the rest get the quiet me, in which i take all the shots and swallow it down my own thoat.

How long can I last this mental torture? When will be the day in which all the anger in me breaks free?

For all I know, I've gone weaker... and this year ain't looking so good for me at all. There is no time for me to victim in all the mental troubles and acttacks.

For all I know, if i die, i would die laughing... even if I'm in pain.

Another "not dead" post!

heyo ppl! im just here to post another post to ensure that my blog aint... dead. LOL. well there are so many things to post but just nvr really gotten the time to do so.

firstly, my xperia is at the service centre! since wed if im not wrong. LOL. the keyboard is losing its sensitivity... prolly due to my violent usage. aft its back, im going to install pretty cool stuff in it to maximise my soon to be signing up 1GB data plan! :D

next, i managed to kiap kiap a yoshi for jessie along with jing song! we spent 4 bucks, but technically 1 buck on that one successful machine. LOL so here are some pics!

Janice and Jessie with the captured Yoshi!

Jessie hiding behind Yoshi!

grp shot! :D

me in the big grin ( =.= ) with jessie and yoshi! :D

alrighty! thats all ! takecare everyone and im sure i will start blogging often once i finish my assignment and prolly my FST! :D

Random post!

okay im here to post a random one to.... hint that my blog will not be dead LOL. sry im piled with assignments LOL!

i did this facebook horoscope thingy and they said this which is pretty true o.o

For Param Charleston who birth in May 30, below are your Love Forecast in Year 2009 :

Friendship First

The distinction between friends and lovers may be tested early this year, for sweet Venus in impulsive Aries spends most of February, March, April and May in your 11th House of Groups and Friends. Threats to your emotional well-being can provoke powerful interactions with others during these months, creating crucial relationship turning points when Venus squares intense Pluto on February 5, April 5 and May 2. Romance may come more easily as Venus moves through your sign on July 6–August 1, but her opposition to Pluto on August 2—as with her squares earlier in the year—can once again bring up difficult issues. Serious Saturn enters Libra and your 5th House of Romance on October 30, where it remains for a couple of years. Settling down into practical and enduring relationships will become top priority.

interesting....